Waver

I don't know what to do. Choosing to continue or not?? This is about the organization .. Why could I be lazy like this?? Actually, because there is the behavior of those who made my heart was not happy. Maybe while I sat in junior high school I'm too active and now the present situation is not fun. It's really boring. There is one thing, I have learned more about English and the way to go to there was exhausting. I need a break before making my body becomes fresh again and if I don't break sometimes I feel dizzy and neglect their homework because I'm so tired. And my friends couldn't feel what I feel, so they do not understand what I feel. They couldn't accept my excuse if I can't attend meetings because of my position now completely preserved. I want to get out but someone stop me. Actually I'm very bored with this situation. Moreover, there are people who are always selfish and want to win themselves, always feel smart and clever, and could not understand the feelings of others. I'm tired of all this .. I hesitated to continue or not?? Want to get out but I maintained a position ..